Today Was Rough!!!

well...today was by far the worst day of my life in a while... i came to school in an ok mood but my mind was heavy... lately, i have been thinkin about my relationship with andrew... and the more i think about it... the more i regret my decision... i came to school thinkin about andrew and things that have recently happened. once we separated, he got back together with his ex... refer to post about boys... its kinda like a slap in the face because i think that i am prettier than her and it is extremely hard to see him with his hand around another chick... REALLY HARD!!! then to put the icing on the cake... today in the hall i saw them kiss. my dearest friend pointed out the his gf is wearin hte same exact shirt as me!!! seriously... if i had access to a change of clothes, i woulda changed my attire. anyways, w/e its a big deal because im a girl who doesnt kno how to handle my emotions and i prolly am just makin a big deal out of nothin... today i was going to talk to him because i thought they had broke up about the whole thing because niether of us had any closure but i saw her and my day took a downward spiral. it is hard for me to understand how someone can act so upset about not being together and a week later, be going out with someone when i am still struggling! today was pretty much the worst day ever... in 6th period i have the same class as his gf and i saw them kiss again and then people saw we had the same shirt on and i was asked like twenty questions about if we had planned it when really i didnt even want to be surrounded by her... i dont blame people because they dont kno wats goin on. im sorry for anyone who had contact with me today because most likely i was a tru butt-hole! i kno i snapped at u kate but i am really sorry :( then i go to practice, still in a bad mood and i am still on jv which really really suxs! i kno i have said it before but today sucked!!! i will prolly go drown in my tears right now, but dont feel bad for me, that is the last thing i want u to do. ill be fine, this is just a wrinkle in time! a line in napolean dynamite that directly relates to my day is this... Grandma: "how was school?" Napolean: "the worst day of my life, what do you think?" one day i hope he reads this and realizes wat i am going through for him!